Welcome back to the LIFE theme park where the only ride for this year is rollercoaster. It has been such a ride through ups and downs. It’s also at the end of year right now. I just came back from work. Time flies super fast like the the flash and I usually do not remember most every highlight of the month. Although last year I remember everything. However this year, I only remember a bit but still memorable! I learn so much about finding what I want especially in one specific area ~~ *SPOILER ALERT* So without further ado, let me tell you that 2021-(is) The Rollercoaster !
Disclaimer:I won’t post any photos on here because of the shortage of time.And please bear with me because I’ll write this in Bahasa and English! Here we go ~
JANUARY-MID MARCH: ONE LAST TIME AND THE ORDINARY RAIL ROAD
Yap, one last time going back to the uni. Honestly not much going on . Just got my ring from the uni. Yep, no official graduation pic up to now. It is safe to say not much going on January through Mid-March. I was not doing much honestly. Like applying new jobs and stuff but ended up with nothing, so I decided to work at the store.
MID MARCH – WHOLE APRIL : GOING UP WITH THE LOVE IN THE AIR MAY – MID JUNE : GOING UP AND READY TO HIT THE GROUND? MID JUNE- MID JULY-MID AUGUST : READY TO GO DOWN? AND SELF-HEALING MID AUGUST – NOVEMBER: STAGNANT AND THERE’S A BIT UPS AND DOWNS BUT NOT AN EXTREME RIDE DECEMBER: ENDING UP THE YEAR EXTRAORDINARY This year has been such a ride. Emotionally agak sesuatu kalo kata Bu Syahrin* tapi yap jawaban focus utamanya adalah *drum rolls please* RELATIONSHIP hahaha. Taun ini dimulai dari datar aja lalu naik lalu turun banget udah kayak nilai saham aja haha naik turun banget. Still habit nulis ini tuh kayak paket express yang cuma 2-3 jam so might be hit or miss. Berencana taun depan sih gak nulis begini lagi. Tapi rasanya tuh.. kayak ada yang kurang aja kalo seandainya ga nutup akhir tahun pake journal ini yang mungkin gabakal ada yang baca haha Tahun ini udah berlalu. Gak berasa udah berlalu . Dalam tahun ini sudah menemukan banyak hal. Dari tetap ngebucin kpop dari Mas Paul, Day6 dan EXO serta mbak IU dan AKMU , nak NCT serta mba Taeyeon di akhir twenty twenty one. Belajar menerima kehidupan yang kadang mengecewakan karena diri sendiri dan orang lain, menggembirakan, serta plot twist plot twist menarik seperti MV K.Will – Please Don’t *winkeu winkeu*. Taun lalu gua bilang “Belajar untuk healing from everything that hurt you sepertinya masih menjadi trend untuk tahun ini *ramalan taun lalu bener aja*. Trus sekarang plusnya adalah jadi tahu kualitas apa yang gua cari dan harapkan dalam relationship. Also moving on is something that is a big theme this year. Belajar memahami diri sendiri. Yang paling penting adalah semoga awal tahun depan bahkan akhir tahun 2022 ada berita menggembirakan 🙂 yang disemogakan menjadi kenyataan dan semoga penulis bisa mencapai impiannya di tahun 2022. It’s Okay to be Not Okay *enggak, bukan terinsipirasi drama Mas Soohyun yang keren bangets* dan gapapa untuk Letting Go *enggak, bukan lagu nge-pun pakai lagu Day6*. Everything Happens for a reason *ini mau nyambung pake lagu AKMU-Happening guys*. Lagu dari Day6 EOD- Right Through Me bener-bener mewakili perasaan gua saat sinking relationshipnya terjadi mana rilisnya pas banget kannnnn lagunya tuh konsepnya cocok abis. HAHAHAHHAHAH LAGU CINTA MBA TAEYEON UDAH KECIPRATAN! Kalo taun lalu sempet becanda minta dicipratin lagu Mba Taeyeon di akhir penulisan, tahun ini udah ngerasain banget. Well sekarang dijalani aja and I can’t wait to see what 2022 has to offer ! 25, here I come! THE CONCLUSION IS I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU FOR EVERYONE WHO HAS MADE MY YEAR AND MADE IT SPECIAL IN A GOOD WAY OR A BAD WAY. THIS YEAR I’M PRODUCTIVE AND ENDED WITH THE UNEXPECTED ONE. HOPE NEXT YEAR WILL BE A BETTER YEAR, THANK YOU , AND KATA AVRIL “KEEP HOLDING ON !”. THIS IS MY TEDTALK 2021 *mic drop, and slowly leaving the stage* ♥ 2021 – THE UNEXPECTED ONE! FIN.
Yeah, this is my first time of the 23 years old potato met people that actually kinda like her (you’ll know why later lmao) . Hm, I remember we met up through an apps to learn called Goodnight. I was learning Korean but I never encountered them haha. Also, it is like a voicecall so you matched up after you talked with the person. I encountered this person. Let’s called him M. Well yeah, I almost hung out his phone call because he didn’t speak up for a few seconds until I started the convo. It went about half an hour . Well, we matched as a friend. He is from neighbour country but studied abroad. Long short story, we kinda talked and I’d say it was a good convo. Then we moved to Whatsapp. We talked and everything goes stronger as the time goes by like yea sure thing has been a bit tiring because of the timezone but hey, the old me was so excited. It was a new experience. The potata has someone she cared for romantically.
So Early May, we went to Bali and Nusa Penida. Taking vacation off after sometime staying at home and working at the store. We went to new places and after sometime I went to Bali again ! Well, Bali was surely has changed a lot and emptied because they just opened for locals. But it was a great adventure! I even lost weight after going there. Well and I just got a new experience. I tried golfing, archery, biking, and swing yoga, also decided to lost weight as I was not healthy when I visit Nusa Penida because of the old enemy, STAIRS hahaha It is so exciting honestly trying new things and play around :D. Everything was perfect. Tried the food and they were so delicious huhu
Let’s say things go down in Mid June. I was having a nice relationship when suddenly he backed out. We have already said I like you to each other but not official yet because he was busy and stuff. One day, we talked about some things about wishing his ex to live well and he was mad but did not talk it out and the next week he just rarely messaging until he stopped messaged me compeletely. He said he took it too far and we should just stayed as friend. Well, at that time, I was such a fool for asking second chance. I was being realistic like at that time, it would be hard too for us to meet up considering going there back and forth can be very expensive and I’m just working at a store with a small salary. Also, I was having a problem when he actually planned to travel with his girl friend and finding strangers (girls) to go around the town that he is going to visit. I feel like I don’t have trust. Well it is stressful for me. I thought we were going to be together for some time considering there’s nothing wrong and we had good convo. But boi oh boi, once small probs and it is collapsed. Well, as I am writing this, I don’t feel a thing anymore but back then I was having a difficult time. So, to heal myself, I took my old passion back! Korean class 🙂 With no hope to even go to Korea anymore because waiting for too long and stuff, I just took it in hope I can be busy and forget things. Also, I made a penpal profile just to talk from friends around the world also the same to forget my mind about him. I mean this girl always lowkey dreaming to have a lot of friends from all around the world! So why not signing up? Rather than dating haha considering the last situationship has sunk like Titanic *RIP*.
Studying Korean and made some new friends even kinda had feeling for two of them at different time period. Ended up rejected and one has fallen for others. Hahaha . It has been such a fun one. Even on my birthday, not much going on, got some birthday gift from some besties haha. I know this year has been a bit boring but that what makes some moments more exciting right 😀 Been friends with other people virtually and hoping some day can meet them personally . Of course, I have made sure they are not creepy . They are nice people and I’m thankful to be able meet them 🙂 I got my first postcard from a friend from Germany around November. And I was like so happy because it is totally unexpected 😀 It was sent around September and I thought it got lost 😦 But hey, guess the postcard has met the receiver 🙂
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